This may seem unstructured, but I figured I'd try to share some realizations I've made here.

God is good. He provides for us even if it's in ways we didn't fully expect. I had really really high expectations for college, and had forgotten that I had been praying for struggle, for challenge. It seems a little crazy, even to me, to pray for such things. But there is a method to the madness. I always have struggled with complacency: coasting, being lukewarm, lacking passion, especially when it came to my faith.
And complacency is a terrifying thing, when what you say you believe is in a life of full surrender and complete humility, following in the footsteps of Christ, who was absolutely radical. Once I realized my own complacency I asked for a wake up call. Maybe the fact that I was asking for a wake up call WAS one in itself, but nonetheless, I prayed. Now, this story is not very dramatic, but I do see my experiences thus far in the collegiate world as an answer to this prayer that I had.
Don't get me wrong in any of this, I am loving it here. It is different than anything I've ever experienced, and that is absolutely exciting, but I have really struggled with putting myself out there. Making new friends? Never done it before. At least not on this scale: there's always been someone to lean on. There's always been a physical human being to latch onto, to find comfort in.
Here there were thousands of people, but all I had was God to latch onto.
And what a great lesson. To be thrown into this mess of people obsessively trying to make friends with whoever is coolest, whoever knows where the best parties are. I was feeling lost in this insane rush to build relationships, and He was there the whole time.
Relationships come. They happen. God puts the people you need in your life when he knows you need them. Whether or not we see what he is doing is irrelevant. If we knew what He was up to all the time then trust would go down the toilet, and challenges wouldn't seem like challenges. I'm thankful that he has tested me in this area of being real, of building relationships. It's a work in progress, just like myself. And fully trusting in God to provide the community I need is difficult, but in the end I know I'll be right where he wants me, and that is unendingly encouraging to me at this point in my life.