I'm having a good summer so far - I mean, it feels great to be working and making money and seeing old friends again. But I just feel like I'm running behind in actually being a musician. I know so many incredible musicians who are spending their summers writing and performing and making money doing what they love and what am I doing? I'm working at Old Navy and nannying. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful to have some kind of job, but I just want to do music, and I feel like I don't fully know how yet. It's like I'm missing something.

I also want to be doing some kind of ministry. I feel like in Nashville there were more opportunities coming up and then I got ripped away from there are have to...start over here, I guess. I don't know. I'm just feeling discontent right now. Blegh.