Sweet Summertime?

In college, summers become more complicated.  Where am I going to live next year?  Will it be on or off campus?  Will I be at school or at home?  Do I have to be at school because of a leasing arrangement?  Where can I make the most money?

These questions are stifling God's voice.  I'm having so much trouble listening.  Sometimes I feel like the only person thinking about the practical.  But maybe the practical isn't as important as what God is calling us to do.  Or maybe the practical is a PART of what God is calling me to do with my time this summer.

Here's the thing - I was supposed to go to Haiti this spring break.  The trip was cancelled.  Any other trip I've found seems to be too expensive.  The funds are just not there if I want to live in Nashville next year and still eat.  God provided the funds that were needed for the school sponsored Haiti trip like nobody's business.  It seemed so right and he provided so faithfully, but now I'm lost.  It is so hard to hear his voice when my head is screaming "stay practical, make money" and many of my friends are going off to distant lands to fulfill his great commission.  I am lost and left behind - I want what is going to bring Him the most glory because that is the only thing that will bring true joy, I just can't see what that is.

Angst.