Making Myself Usable

I think that in order to fully understand resting in God, we must exhaust ourselves by first pouring ourselves into others. This summer I was the definition of complacent. Not to say I did nothing and learned nothing, but there was no growth and there was far too much self-inflicted spiritual depravity.

Now, back at school, I'm absolutely exhausted, but feel better than I did all summer. Pouring myself into others in the past week or so has been a little scary, since I'm used to such familiar faces and comfortable situations. I also am realizing more and more, though I've always known, that you HAVE to learn to step out of your comfort zone in order to grow most.

Now, going off of that, I realize that living the gospel in every aspect of my life is, generally, out of my comfort zone. I tend to feel awkward, like I don't have the right words to say, and feel that I'm a failure at establishing relationships with people - christ-followers or not.

So my prayer this year is that God would continue to throw me into uncomfortable situations, that I may learn to better lean on His wisdom and strength more than I have ever before. My other prayer for this year is that God would make me usable. He cannot use me until I am willing to be usable. I'm ready now.