My heart is in a battle between bitterness and softness. Between joy and fear. Between loving others and fostering bitterness towards others. It really displays quite well how I have been towards God this semester, as well. Complacency is my enemy, yet it is my best friend. If I am to really know the heart of God it is going to take more perseverance than this.
God softened my heart this morning. I came into worship bitter, holding onto some jealousy that I won’t get into, and left feeling much softened. I’m a work in progress.
My cry is to pursue God with consistency, even if the emotions are not present. Because pursuing God is not about emotion, it’s about devotion. Because I’ll never get anywhere, there will never be growth, that is, unless I give everything over.
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